Happy New Year...!,
I cannot believe in a day it will be the year 2020. Overall when people think of bucket lists and such 2019 overall was a terrible year. A lot of bad things happened that I don't want to recount. Only difference this year I had more strength to fight off some of my demons.


It wasn't entirely bad but one good highlight is I went to see my best friend of 20 years who we didn't see each other in person for 14 years. It started when my boss asked if I was going anywhere for the summer and quickly said nope! I thought about it all weekend, took a long 6 hour round trip drive then realized the barriers I had before preventing me from traveling wasn't there anymore such as having my own car and listening to my Dad's lame excuses of not doing things. I said yes instead of no and because why not?



Today I got this with a fortune cookie. Does this mean today with half day work and middle of the week day off??? Ha! I don't do much on the weekends except work a little, play games and catch up on sleep. Funny how some people won't bother me at certain times in the day because they know I am asleep!

I hope this year will be better and more exciting. Best wishes and regards. Hopefully in 2020 I'll be able to see with my blind eyes and realize and work on my core goals. It will be difficult to write 2019 and try to loop and fix it with 2020!

Thanks so much
See you next year.
-K
















































Anyone else upset about the 120k duct taped banana? I sure am. This further muddles the world of Fine Art and Abstract art. Earlier this week Maurizio Cattelan duct taped a banana to the wall at the Miami Art Basel that sold for 120k. Someone later ate the said banana and called that performance art.

Man if only I can get a prestigious art grant and showcase my work in a prestigious gallery/museum super glue a $100 bill on the ground and name it Frustration.

I've been wanting to share one of my run-ins with abstract art. In art school critiquing an abstract artist's work was a total minefield. Anything you say will cause an explosive response. If you said anything one was attacking their very being.

Colors can evoke emotions. People feel a certain way when exposed to certain colors due to color psychology. One of my opinions with art is I think it severely detracts from the artwork when one has to explain what the subject and intention is.

I somewhat remember a piece was called "Melancholy" and it was painted in bright colors, like orange and such. Unfortunately I had to open my mouth to provide critique for a grade.
I suggested something along the lines of using a cool color palette. Just a suggestion, something to think about. Boy was I ripped to shreds. If I didn't know the title of the piece my interpretation was not what the artist wanted me to feel. There are certain laws and rules that exist, like primary colors is the base of practically all color.  And you cannot control what people feel, you can help guide the spectator there.

Melancholy...having the blues. Er not having the oranges. Or mix some blue with that orange, but that would create some brown... The fact that orange Melancholy had to be explained, detracted ones interpretation of what that piece meant.

I do respect some Abstract artists like Rothko and Jackson Pollack with what they were doing.  Frustrating how in the era of becoming viral people resort to provocative quick gimmicks for money and fame. Or the umpteth Rothko ripoff. 

 Then again this whole banana thing if from the guy who steals a golden toilet and sets it up as an installation and then proceeds to sell it. The fact the installation was called "Comedian," seems like a taunt and instigation.

On both sides I like to have an academic discussion about art, in my experience people on the Abstract side aren't so open minded and tend to be more defensive.

The Concept/Fine Artist Karla Ortiz has a good articulate response to the duct taped banana  Instagram Post Link



























Somehow I just knew and had a strong feeling the day would come this year... Marvin Grey passed at 14 years old yesterday. He is a Russian Blue cat. Was a silent meower, had a speech impediment, he could not purr or meow. He was the last of the bunch to pass on.

Marvin technically was not my cat but he was became most attached and bonded to me. My ex step mom named him Marvin, and my sister and I came up with his middle name of Grey. Marvin was Marvin grey because he wasn't cool enough to be Marvin Gay.


He waltzed into our lives when I was ending my freshman year in high school when I was 14. Earlier in the day my dad and sister scared off this cat that was lingering in the backyard.  The back sliding screen door was open for the dogs to go out. Later on that evening my dog was acting strangely and he kept on wandering between the garage and laundry room. The dog food container was in the laundry room. This dog was pretty low energy like me and when he was focused or riled up something was amiss.

After wandering back and fourth I noticed this small grey blob on the laundry shelf and shouted to my sister who was upstairs, "Oh my god Dannica there's a rat in the house!!" Somehow I got her to come down the stairs. Thats pretty hard to do when you are the younger sister.
I left the room and she ended up coming down with her dog and pulled it off the shelf and proclaimed the grey blob wasn't a rat but a kitten.


We kept Marvin for 3 days and then gave him to our step mom because we didn't know how to take care of cats. It was hilarious during that time he would try to get close to Monte who was the furrier dog, and he wasn't having it. It freaked him out.  At that time we trained the dogs to chase cats because they were a local pest problem. When we all moved in the same house that was a nightmare to get all the dogs and cats acclimated to each other.




Marvin was an asshole, but a lovable one. He would make me so mad because he liked to lay on my on my stuff and even my Wacom tablets too...which are $500 dollars!! Also I am allergic to dust and he would roll on the ground outside and make himself nice and dusty and proceed to rub my face, which would make my face break out in an instant rash. It started out as a joke that he hated but I would hold him like a baby to the point he eventually liked to be held that way.

At times I was able to tolerate him because he acted like a dog. When he was happy he would drool, when we had dogs he'd hang out with the dogs, get into the dog food, his life revolved around food.  He was smart for a cat he learned how to open the back screen door by head butting it.

Marvin was feisty and would get in fights, One time he got into a fight and lost to the neighbor's cats who happened to be our Veterinarian.  That was pretty embarrassing, because he was an instigator. Another time he started a fight and then fled and the opposing cat bit him in the butt-cheek. That was a major pain because we had to put hot compresses and squeeze his booty twice a day for a week.


One fight that was life altering was he somehow escaped at night and got into a fight with a skunk and hit his head pretty hard while escaping. The layers of his left eye scrambled. This was around the time when my ex step mom dumped both of her cats on me to take care of, regardless of how I felt. I paid more than $400 to get his eye removed. Which was the less expensive option compared to reconstructive eye surgery that wasn't guaranteed to work.

At one point I'd sleep with all 3 of them on my bed. I had to arrange their section of the bed. Worst part was when one would step on another in a sleep state and get in a sleep confused scared battle and wake me up.  Monte liked to sleep on the pillows, and I would place my head near his stomach, Claudia on the sides but she tended to roll and Marvin at the foot of the bed, If I moved the fuzzy blanket Marvin I could direct where he would sleep. 



Its his fault and Claudia's fault I cannot stand the smell of skunks. If I smell a whiff the memory of that foul smell comes up full blown, regardless how far I am.  3 times in my life that I was up close and personal to the smell, I have a overall bad sense of smell, and when I can smell it I know its bad.
One time we had to put tomato juice on the white dog and she was a shade of pink for like a month. Twice he was skunked, TWICE. I nicknamed him Mr. Kitty and he would respond to it.




He always loved to be outside and in his final years lived in a hole under my dad's house and got fed when he wanted. He was my first and last cat. I would never get another cat again, I was never much into cats, but Marvin Grey was a special cat. He passed right by the Paz de Cristo stone. May he rest in peace.




Save your work. I cannot stress this enough. 

Back it up and save multiple drafts and files of your electronic media. Especially major mile stones and turning points in a different file. 

Just in case in case "something" happens. 

Things can and always will happen unexceptionally.


 

This rarely happens to me in now in days, I know better. When this does it sucks majorly and is disastrous soul eating and crushing experience. I'm disappointed in myself because yes I am usually paranoid with saving. Save save save. I've lost tons of work before: hard drive damage, had it corrupted, you name it, power outages and when I as a teenager I don't how many times I trashed and experimented with my computer that I had to reinitialize. I mean I had one of my computers spontaneously catch on fire...and by some miracle this computer still works without the sound. >___> Let me tell you Dell computers are tanks.



I'm pretty mad because there is no way I can honestly bill the client for that time of redoing the work. I wouldn't feel right about that. I was working on something on a web browser for their project and had to refresh because it wasn't working right and it erased my work!!!  I mean it only was an hour worth of work. But going back and redoing that segment will be a pain.

The only plus side is at least after finishing that segment, I figured a method with a quicker solution to replace the lost work. Its just I'm not up for a soul crushing experience and moral of the story mood. Yay and nay for OJT. Now it just regaining the motivation and focus to do said work.
I'm so fortunate that there isn't a set or upcoming deadline on this project. This is a freelance job so I can work on this when I want, but I need to show some progress and milestones because well professionalism. Professionalism means getting assigned work done and delivered in a timely and efficient manner.





Life is ironic. Ironically Icecube's "Check Yourself" came up on my playlist while coming to grips with this debacle. And I didn't check myself so I wrecked myself. ugh part of the moral of the story.






So lesson here one cannot stress enough is save your work and have a duplicate file here and there.












































Almost done. Pretty much fully rendered. Used Copic markers and Copic paper. Man, I've somewhat become one of those artists who take forever to complete something. 😩
Just need to work on the background and some minor details. I'll probably use airbrush for the background, the compressor is so loud I have to use it in the day time before 9pm.







Yep, I like colors.








I was nervous rendering the red cape, I didn't want it to take away from the face. I don't have much red colors but I was able to layer some pink to add color and not just use red. Same with the blue hair. Markers is a medium where once you place your mark its permanent.



It's nice around this time of year, work slows down and I have more time to myself. I haven't been off a full weekend in months. To me more so than spring I feel like fall is more of a time of metamorphosis and change. I do fall cleaning instead of spring. 






Well peace and take care peeps.






































Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been stupid busy lately, and this entire month flew by. Things are finally slowing down and I have more time to myself, work on projects I want to do and rest.

 I'm always on the computer due to work and I've been avoiding being on my computer, 
unless I absolutely have to. 😓 Even though I do have a nice setup. 


Here is a lesson I wished I knew when I was younger. 


Working on creative work it can be counter productive to work while you are tired.
It's better to put down your work and rest and then come back rejuvenated than to work while tired and take longer and not produce as good quality work. 
(Unless it is for work with a deadline then your'e screwed.)

<Don't tell my boss it took like 3 hours to submit an order today.
In my defense there was a lot of money on the line. High volume and quantity. Good thing I kept triple/whatever checking because the submission requirements were strange. I had to rework the card and flyer to get it print ready.  In the end everything came out okay. I really wanted to make sure it was right. On a good day that would've taken about an hour or less.>   

Progress is progress even in little steps. I've learned things don't happen as quick as you think but as long as you make small goals they add up to bigger goals. 



I'm happy to rest and will be happier, enthusiastic, and excited when I have the energy 
to work on my own work!
Hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween tomorrow. 👐













































Cloud Strife from Final Fantasy 7 -Emotion is Anger/Annoyance


For the most part I've been doing Inktober daily. Practicing different emotions/head angles with different video game characters. It helps to keep a similar theme and these drawings are as big as a 3x3 sticky note. Some days are better than others.

I like to use Copic multiliners and Strathmore Marker Paper. I ran out of Strathmore Marker Paper so I'm currently using large sheets of Bristol paper from Strathmore.






Day 1 Aeris from Final Fantasy 7





Day 2 Tifa from Final Fantasy 7
 



Day 3 ^ Cloud





Day 4 Barret from Final Fantasy 7. His new design has him rocking sunglasses at night in a land of no sunlight.Doki Doki Barret...dude has a left gun arm that looks ridiculous in HD.  He looks like he came from one of those rehydrating face washing commercials. Idk the more I worked on it looked like a younger version of my dad with hair, which is a strange concept. 


Day 5  Red from Transistor
Day 6 Transistor Sword

Finally beat this game this past weekend. Game took a sudden turn to one of those sad happy endings. Funny on Saturday after doing most of what I needed to do, I sat down to play this game and somehow 3 hours or so passed and I didn't notice until it was starting to get dark.




Day 7(Today) Nero from Devil May Cry 4-5
Nero isn't an annoying punk anymore and his character design and move sets seem cooler in this game. Just got DMC5 today, its not as fun yet because I haven't unlocked any cool moves that let you fly around the screen.
































































More progress of the Ni No Kuni sketch. Inked with Copic multiliner brown .01 and .03

It has gotten to the point like work as a Graphic Designer, I have to either a notepad or sticky note to keep up and remember artwork I need to do and complete. My short term memory of what is in my sketchbook suffers. Once I actually focus I'm pretty quick in drawing and execution. Like my mentor says try to not work on something too long or you can overwork it and waste time as well.


A drawing I did last year around this time. I like to look at milestones in work improvement.
I used to hate inking, but I enjoy it now. My lines are juicer and smoother.
And awareness of line sensitivity and spacial depth. Bolder lines to the front and thiner lines in the back.

Beautiful part of this stage I can totally mess up and try again.
I can use a scan and re-print the drawing. 


Inktober is coming up next week. This year I hope to keep up with the daily challenges daily, instead of starting mid-month and finishing later.